When starting my emotional healing path I started blogging and that really helped but little did I know that blogging would also heal me from stepping out of a marriage that became my psychological prison.
I am reading a book that I can relate to. Not only because it is written by a Christian but he is also a physiologist (Paul Meier, M.D. title of the book “Blue Genes) with to my liking a scientific combined with a Christian view on common emotional and behavioral problems. Anyway a story that has drawn my attention is “Marilyn’s story” (Of course names are invented) a very beautiful and famous movie star who married 8 times. Each time to a bum, she was going through her eight divorce.He was an alcoholic who physically abused her. She was diagnosed with a so called “Somatization disorder” , which means that she had an unknown psychological problem resulting in her physical symptoms. When doctor Meier started treating her and she talked about her devotion as a Christian he asked her : “Don’t nice Christian guys ever ask you out when you are single ?” Marilyn then replied: “Yes, but they are so boring!” Dr Meier than guessed without asking in this case that her father was an alcoholic who always ran out on her mother. This guess turned out to be right. Dr Meier his reason was that it is estimated that 85 percent of adults marry someone similar to the parent of the opposite sex.
This remark made me realize that my ex husband was just like my father a cheating and lying husband. Blogging helps to put these thoughts on digital paper and by doing so looking at it from a distance.